The following prayer is not one that I am praying for me, at least not right now. It is instead, an honest prayer from the perspective of those who are knee deep in the struggle. God never says that our words in prayer had to be big or pretty or flowery. He does tell us to come to Him and pray about everything. As I write, there are so many I love whose circumstances I wish I could change, but I can’t. So I pray. A lot. My hope is that someone will see these words and be able to cry out to God without worrying about what they say.
Father,
Can I just be honest, since You know my heart and my thoughts already? I wanted this to work out differently. I wanted the circumstances to change. I wanted You to work an incredible miracle. I honestly thought my way would be better. So I am here just to say that this is hard. I don’t understand all the how’s and the whys of why it turned out this way. I know Your ways are not my ways and Your thoughts are not my thoughts. I know that You’re way is always best. So, I’m gonna need You to comfort my aching heart. I’m gonna need that peace that passes understanding that only You can give. And these people around me, whom I love with my whole heart, will You do the same for them? Will You be present, like surround us with Your presence so that we know in the depths of our souls that You are with us? If only I can feel You and see Your hand on these circumstances then I can cling to You and to the hope that all of this is for my good and Your glory. Also, when I forget that You really are in control and You really are faithful, remind me. I love You. I do. Thank you for loving me. In Jesus Name.
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