I have fumbled around with the prompt for the day – all day on and off. There is an endless series of topics that could be written upon about the word discover. In fact, I made a list and it filled the front and back of a sheet of notebook paper.
The problem is that I don’t want to write about any of those topics today. This week I have heard the results from two cancer scans. One has broken my heart and the other has me rejoicing.
A precious boy and his family found out today that his scan was still clear. Oh my, the joy in those words. He and his family fought cancer with every part of their being. Over the course of two years he suffered greatly but he and his family never gave up. This year started he Kindergarten. I cant wait to see every school picture for every other grade!
Another family did not get the same news. In fact, they got the very opposite news. This mother and grandmother fought cancer with every part of her being. Her family was there for her every step of the way. Though I know she must have suffered greatly, she has remained positive and encouraging the entire time. Her family continues that attitude in the face of devastating news.
Here is where things get dicey. Can I praise God for one set of results and curse Him for the other? Do I just get angry with Him for the existence of cancer all together? I’ll be honest – I am working through it still. What I believe is key is that I am working through it with Him. I believe that God is good. I believe that He cares about us as individuals. I believe He has control over all the scans. Even when I don’t like them. Even when they dont make sense. Even when they break my heart.
To both families: you are all loved greatly by an enormous number of people. Thank you for being examples of how to love deeply and love well. Thank you for allowing us to walk this journey with you. Know that we will continue to walk with you through joy and grief. Those of us on the outside cannot fully know your heartache but we are honored to hold you up in prayer and love you and yours.
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