I have been squashing my joy, toning down my happy, and stuffing my hope deep down where no one (including me) could find it. I got stuck in a muck pile of shame. My thoughts were not about good things, they were about how I needed to be ashamed of who I am and what I have done wrong. Somewhere… Read More
The State of My Heart
Tidbits of Truth When I left my job in December of 2018, the goal was to work toward the dreams God had given me. Scrambling around this week for ways to replace the income that I lost in December, it occurred to me that I had not made very much progress toward those goals. I’ve done some incredible stuff, like… Read More
A season of new life
Here is just some of my truth. Some days are harder than others. Some days are much, much harder than others. Some days are easier. There are a few days that have hard things and are still easier. I have suffered from clinical/major depression for 22 years – so I have known a lot of hard days. What I feel… Read More
Laughter
The mood in the room was at best, tense. Everyone was tired, hot, and frustrated. There were too many bodies in too small a space which meant that every move affected someone else. As the leader in the room, I was frustrated that I couldn’t seem to move the crowd past the little things that had added up to be… Read More
Day Five – Gratitude – Abundance
Gratitude – Day 5 – Abundance Last night, in the process of looking for an item of clothing, I decided to clean out my chest of drawers. I struggle to find room for my clothing in my dresser and my closet. Everything is always packed full to overflowing. When I had finished taking out clothes that either no longer fit… Read More