I have been squashing my joy, toning down my happy, and stuffing my hope deep down where no one (including me) could find it. I got stuck in a muck pile of shame. My thoughts were not about good things, they were about how I needed to be ashamed of who I am and what I have done wrong. Somewhere… Read More
The State of My Heart
Tidbits of Truth When I left my job in December of 2018, the goal was to work toward the dreams God had given me. Scrambling around this week for ways to replace the income that I lost in December, it occurred to me that I had not made very much progress toward those goals. I’ve done some incredible stuff, like… Read More
First, Forgiveness
It has been a full month that I have not taught in a classroom. My heart’s longing is to write, speak, and encourage women. My family’s need is for me to have an income and to be mentally, emotionally, and spiritually healthy. At the current moment those two needs appear to be diametrically opposed. Over the past three years I… Read More
Day Four – Gratitude – The Way God Works
Day 4 – Grateful – The Way God Works This is my third attempt at writing what I am grateful for today. When God originally gave me this idea, I wrote an outline for what I would write about each day. I haven’t used it yet. Turns out, God is teaching me something every day and through that showing me… Read More
Feelings Aren’t Truth
Today I have been discouraged. I have felt hurt, sad, and afraid. Which makes me even more grateful that while the way we feel is real, it isn’t always truth. In fact, most of the time, our feelings lie to us. They tell us we are unwanted, unneeded, unheard, and unseen. They tell us that others don’t like us, that… Read More